Gusto ko lang po ng world peace

Hindi naman ako beauty queen o prime minister, pero gusto ko din ng world peace. Sa araw-araw na nasaksihan ko kung paano nagsisimula ang tensyon sa bawat isa, nakakita ako ng iilan-ilang paraan upang makamit natin ang tinatamasang world peace. At ito ang tatlo sa pinakamadali ngunit nakakalimutan nating gawin:

1. Huwag pangunahan ng sigaw ang paliwanag. Kung mas malumanay lang sanang magsalita, hindi yung nagsisitaasan ang boses kapag nagpapaliwanagan, mas gagaan sana ang usapan. Hindi nagsisigawan at hindi nagpapadala agad sa emosyon, mas makikinig ang kausap mo at mas magkakaintindihan nang maayos. At tsaka kapag nagsimula ng tumaas ang boses ay dyan na nagsisimulang mag-init ang bawat kampo.. Kaya, huwag daanin sa taas ng boses, hindi kayo dinosaur.

2. Proper time management. Kung mas maaga lang sanang natutulog, e di maaga ding gumigising. Mas marami silang time para mag-prepare, e di hindi sila nalelate. Hindi sila nagmamadali at nang-aattack ng kung sinu-sino— hindi nambabangga mapa-tao man o kotse. At mas lalong hindi sila cranky. Hindi na sila late, less accident, at happy pa sila. It’s a better place to live in! Chauce!

3. Matuto sanang maging appreciative. Kung mas magiging appreciative tayo, mas magiging grateful at positive tayo sa buhay. Meron at merong aspeto sa buhay natin na maaappreciate at maipagpapasalamat natin. At mas magiging aware tayo sa mga mayroon tayo kesa sa mga wala. Kung appreciative din tayo, hindi tayo maiinggit o magseselos, at hindi tayo mag-se-self-pity. Maiisip pa nating tumulong sa iba at ishare kung anong meron tayo. Happy happy lang!

Iyan lang naisip ko kasi laging ganyan ang nasa balita, kung hindi bangayan ay puro aksidente, puro rin revenge ang nasa mga palabas. Ayun lang. Mehehe. May maidadagdag ba kayo?

PS. Nagbago ang wordpress. Mas lumuwang. May beep beep boop pa haha. Aliw. Nakakapanibago maginternet. Meh~

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Spaceman

I’m not a spaceman, but tonight I feel like one. Don’t get me wrong. I’m used to being by myself– alone, happy, and contented– but I just feel lonely tonight. I miss everybody. And everybody seems like drifting away from me— mom, siblings, friends. They are there somewhere, but busy in their own little worlds. Maybe this is the sign that we’re growing up: our priorities don’t align with each other anymore.

I know I can be the clingiest, but I’m fine. I can handle myself better now than before. Haha! I just missed the old days when I was surrounded by the people who mean to me. Laugh a little, eat a little, argue a little, hang out a little… But I’m hindered right now because I’m lightyears away from them, just like a spaceman. I guess this is the part where we all part, because we each have dreams to chase and decisions to stand for. Must resist caring because caring is creepy. Might as well own this feeling. Meh.

Why do you run?

You run because you have a pair of runners, and you want to maximize its functions and existence. You know its value.

You run because you want to excrete toxins from your body through perspiration. You want to exhaust yourself even if it’s killing you. You’re a masochist.

You run because you want to leave. You leave because you want to go somewhere better. You want to go somewhere better because you’re too full to contain everything. You’re too full to contain everything because you’ve had enough. You’ve had enough because!

Why do you run?
Do you run against something or
Do you run towards something?
Whatever your reasons, just run.. It pains in the beginning, but it will make you feel better later on.

Internal Bleeding

You just don’t realize that it’s what you wanted.

Accept it. You’ve been waiting for this to happen. The rush of blood to your brain, the uneasy feeling of guilt and fear at the same time, the abuse of demons inside you, and the eagerness of self-discipline and control.

You’ve been seeking for this. After a long moment of constant idleness, effortless joy, and candid contentment, finally the sacred pain has arrived.

All along it was straightforward peace.
It was very plain and predictable that you could actually be restless in peace. It’s as if you’ve been walking long enough and the rule is to just walk…but it’s boring you, so you decided to run as fast as you can. You run so swiftly, you don’t even know when to stop. You run, then suddenly you stumble so hard. You run just to stumble so hard. You run just to feel the pain. Why do you do that? Because that’s what you wanted.

For once in our lives, we wished for struggles..good struggles that would knock us down and lead us to the right path. Struggles that would mold our characters and repel our groundless visions in life. Turns out we just dont want this, we actually need this once in a while. Because each of us have consulting detectives inside of us, inner Sherlocks, who wanted to solve everything especially when bored. Maybe we’re just bored souls searching for troubles… But anyway, sometimes life’s hard like this.

Sometimes, you’re ashamed of sharing your struggles to someone.. Sometimes you’re stuck in prayers that God has been answering, but it’s just you who have disconnected the lines.. Sometimes you just want to drain your soul to feel human enough to feel and have felt.. Sometimes you just have to go back to square one to remind yourself of what has been and what would’ve become.. Sometimes it’s just you.. Sometimes all you need is an adult cry to ease up all the troubles in your heart..

Because in the end, God assures that everything will be alright. Just cry, it will go away.

pointless

i’m bored.

probably because nothing exciting is happening. routine. i’m living in a routine. my mom is making home-made wine, my older brother is watching that anime that’s been going on for forever, my sister is working, my younger brother is playing basketball. i don’t have friends to ask me out, so i asked myself out, but i repelled the invitation, because it’s raining and i don’t have coins for my bus fare. ugh. life is hard sometimes.

what’s going on? a lot really, important to others but not to me.

how are you? fine. as fine as art.

breaking news: i found a new mole. it’s located at the back of my left hand between my pinky and ring finger. it’s so tiny, like a dot from a pen. i actually thought it’s an ink but it just won’t go away so finally i’ve deduced it’s a mole. yes, hooray for the birth of a new mole! what does that mean—a mole inbetween fingers? 

More than Friends

Everyday, we meet different people. Some are strangers you only see once, some are strangers you religiously see everyday at the same place and at the same time, and some are strangers who have the potential to become your friend. Whatever the situation is, we all started as strangers–strangers who are valiant enough to share their lives to another stranger.

So what motivated us to befriend that person? We don’t know. It just happened. The universe conspired who should we meet and share our lives with.

Sadly, not all of them will stay. Some will leave you. Some will come back. And some will forever disappear in your life and never come back again.

We meet a lot of different people, but only some of them will have a great impact in our lives. The ones who are easy to talk with. When you open up yourselves to them, they won’t despise or disown you—no judgment and condemnation, just understanding and love. At the same time, when you’re wrong they would point out your mistakes and help you get back on your feet again. And when you feel that security from them… BOOM! They’ve gotten through the walls you’ve built for so long. It’s impossible, but true!

Hindi ko sila maituturing na kaibigan, dahil higit pa sa kaibigan ang turing ko sa kanila— mga kapatid sa ibang magulang. Cheesecurls! :)

Ang Buhay at Hanapbuhay

“The beauty of life is to give. The purpose of life is to grow. The adventure of life is to learn. The spice of life is to befriend. The essence of life is to care. The opportunity of life is to serve. The secret of life is to love. The challenge of life is to overcome.”
– William Arthur Ward


Ang bilis ng araw, Pebrero na naman. Noong nakaraang linggo nakakadepress kasi pakiramdam ko lahat ng ginagawa ko walang saysay. parang umiikot na lang ang buhay ko sa routine–trabaho, bahay, trabaho. Tinatanong ko ang sarili ko kung may saysay pa ba itong buhay ko. Parang patapon na kasi. Pakiramdam ko kasi wala namang nangyayari. Parang wala lang talaga. Gawa lang ako ng gawa basta lang may gawin sa buhay. Ewan ko ba. Pakiramdam ko e nakorner ako dito sa stage ng buhay ko.

Gusto kong gawin yung mga bagay na gusto ko, kaso lang nandito ako ngayon e, nagtatrabaho. Sa sobrang bitter ko, binasa ko ang libro ni Kahlil Gibran na The Prophet. Sabi niya, “…when you work, you fulfill a part of the earth’s furthest dream, assigned to you when that dream was born, and in keeping yourself with labour is in truth loving life, And to love life through labour is to be intimate with life’s inmost secret.” Nakakatuwa diba? Kasi kahit gaano ka kapalpak sa trabaho, kahit pinapagalitan ka ng boss mo, kahit na minsan e talagang sablay ka, may purpose kung bakit nandyan ka sa sitwasyon mo ngayon. Nilagay ka diyan ng Diyos para maisakatuparan ang mga pangako Niya sa’yo at sa ibang tao. Ginagawa kang instrumento ng Diyos ngayon diyan at huwag mong sayangin ang pagkakataon. Ang galing diba? Hakhak.

Nakakamangha. Kasi isipin mo yung mga blue-collar jobs, halimbawa yung basurero kung wala sila, magiging dumpsite ang bahay niyo. Yung drayber ng bus, maski late siya binawian ka naman ng isang magandang umagang ngiti, diba naging instrumento na siya upang bigyang liwanag ang araw mo at tinuruan ka pa niyang maghintay. Yung tinderang masungit, dahil masungit siya naisip mong pangit palang sabayan yung sungit niya kaya napangiti ka na lang. Tinuruan ka pa niyang magtimpi. At marami pa sa listahan! Simple pero malakas pala ang impact.

Nakakatuwa, kasi akala natin wala namang nangyayari sa pinaggagagawa natin o sa buhay natin, parang wala namang kwenta…pero meron pala, hindi lang natin napapansin. Hindi natin napapansin kasi iba yung pinapansin natin. At saka kung tanungin mo man ang sarili mo kung bakit nandyan ka ngayon sa lugar/sitwasyon na hindi mo man lang pinlano sa tanan ng buhay mo, isipin mo na nandyan ka upang maranasan mo ang totoong buhay at maranasan mo ang Diyos. Hindi mo man maintindihan ang lahat ngayon, magtiwala ka muna kay God kasi pansamantala lang yan. Mas maganda kasi ang plano ng Diyos kesa sa plano mo.