Strangers

Habang naghihintay sa aking sundo, biglang may kumausap sa aking babae. Noong una hndi ko alam na kinakausap pala niya ako, dahil di ko siya madinig kasi may suot akong earphones. Buti na lang tumalikod ako at napansin ko siyang parang kinakausap ako. Tinanong lang naman niya kung san ko nabili ang suot kong high top converse na itim. Tapos hindi na tumigil ang aming kwentuhan.

Sa totoo lang, mukha siyang adik. Pero wala akong pakialam kung anong hitsura niya, nirerespeto ko naman siya bilang tao. Siguro masyado lang tayong driven (?) sa pag-i-stereotype at pag-ggeneralize sa mga tao. Minsan, kung sino pa yung aakalain mong masama, sila pa yung nagpapakita ng kabutihan.

Naalala ko yung ad sa waiting shed: We’re all relatives if we go back far enough. Sa 2012 at higit pang taon na nakalipas, nawalan na ng silbi ang pakikipag-ugnayan natin sa kapwa tao. Nananatili na lang tayong nakadikit sa mga taong kakilala o kakilala ng kakilala natin. Hanggang doon lang. Hindi na natin inexplore yung kakilala ng kakilala ng kakilala natin… Nawalan na tayo ng compassion sa buong sangkatauhan. Oo nga, it’s a wild world, there’s a lot of bad and beware. Pero may mga mabuti din naman– mas madami pa nga e. Masyado lang tayong takot at nangangamba.

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1 Word of the Day: cimmerian – very dark, gloomy, deep
2 Masarap yung mango cake na may strawberry, pinya, at melon na toppings. Pati na rin ang strawberry cheesecake. NOMNOM.
3 Wala pa rin snow, pero ang lamig lamig
4 Kabertdey ko pala si Ellie Goulding (JOKE LANG si Pixie Lott pala-sabaw lang nung nagtype ako)
5 Nagbalik na ang RockEd Radio (YEHEY!!!)
6 Bakit nila ako kinalimutan sa mismong kaarawan ko?
7 Ngayon ko lang naramdaman yung sobrang ignored, hindi ako importante sa kanila. OKAY.
8 Human nature lang naman siguro na maghanap ako ng affection
9 Minsan hindi pala maiiwasan maging selfish
10 Friends do come and go. You can go and chase them—but not forever.
11 Best friends stick with you like stamps (of course you’re the envelope). Keep them.
12 Your family will always be there when everybody has disowned you.
13 Friday the 13th ngayon sa Pinas pero January 12 pa lang sa ibang panig ng mundo. COOL!
14 May mga bagong kaibigan tayong nakikilala at makikilala
15 Madami pa tayong lugar na hindi napupuntahan
16 Ang tagal-tagal ko nang nabubuhay pero parang wala pa akong nagagawa
17 Sana mas independent and free ako/tayo tapos explore natin mundo
18 At some point, feeling ko hindi ako loved, pero narealize ko mas mahal ako ng mga taong iniitsapwera ko, so parang unfair sa kanila…babawi ako
19 Nakaka-emo pala kapag nagbebertdey
20 Masaya na malungkot, pero ito na ang huling lungkot ko.
21 Ang faithful ni God kahit kelan. Ako na nga yung muntik nang bumitaw, pero hinahawakan pa rin Niya ako. Siguro mas magiging mature na ako. Thank You, Father God, sa nakaraang mga taon at sa bagong taon. You’re extremely the best!!!

Never be an Acosmist

Word of the day: acosmist – One who believes that nothing exists

God is good, and I am learning to accept every greatness He’s up to. Just as I thought I opened my two eyes very well, later did I realize my other eye is closed.

I danced to every blessing He gave, but I danced in just a one-foot squared area and was already overwhelmed with it. I could dance further freely, but I didn’t. The music is starting to die, and never get the chance to enjoy it. I neglected one, two, three (keep on counting) blessings. I got scared and contented with those little blessings, but then God wanted more. He said it’s not yet His best–it’s just his little surprise for us. By the word little, He would mean a single dot in a clear bond paper. Imagine that big surprise God wanted for you and you just say a NO in response? HA! How silly one could ever be?

I limit myself to the point that I thought that–that’s it–that is all I could ever have, nothing more nothing less. Well, in fact, God has MORE to offer. He wanted me to dance in a bigger boat, larger than Titanic. It’s just me who shy away from all the greatness God has been offering. Why do I have to be so stupid and realize that just by the end of the year? (It’s PRIDE)

God loves you more than you could ever think of. Love and share the love. Count your blessings and be the blessing. Have passion for the entire human race, even if you’re starting to give up on them. Have fun and enjoy every place you could be, may it be in the bus or in a lazy classroom. Wherever you are, whoever you’re with, make a difference while having fun. Dream on. Get your dream. And dream again. Forget about making things perfect; Mistakes may be the second best things that would happen in our lives. Break out your cocoon and explore life. You are more than everything else, because you are a child of God. Good vibes all the way. Go ahead, shout hello to 2012 with a bang!

Sequel

Explore ecstasy.
Hedonism is not crime;
Cupidity is.

Contemned

Word of the day: terse – concise; to the point; brief.

Natupad na din ang aking pangarap. Naging imbisibol ako. Halos tatlong buwan o apat yata. Hindi ako sigurado, pero alam ko na ang pakiramdam ni Violet Parr.

Akala ko cool maging imbisibol, sa una lang pala. Pagdating ng ilang linggo, ilang buwan, pipilitin mong may makapansin sayo. Magpapansin ka, pero walang epek kahit tumambling ka sa harap o maghubad ka dahil imbisibol ka nga. Wala ka na. Daig mo pa ang taong patay; buti pa nga ang patay naaalala, e ikaw…

Nakita ko sinulat mo sa iyong journal na naiinis ka sa akin. Ginugulo kita. Ganun ang konteksto. Kumbaga sa mga tv series, ito ang linya na makakapagpasikat sayo dahil ni-re-requote nila: “I wish you’d get out of my life and shut up”. Ganyan ka ba kagalit sa akin? Wala man lang ni- hi, hello, goodbye, thank you, i never love you. Anyare? 2012 na!

Last day of the year

2011 was a rollercoaster year. Not too bad.
2012, surprise me!

DIANA et al

Nagiging Diana na itong blog ko. Bakit Diana?
Kasi si Diana ang grand slam ko nung hayskul. Pagkatapos ng hayskul, hindi na kami ulit nagkita. Matagal bago nagparamdam. Ngunit isang araw ng holy week, sa di inaasahang pagkakataon, nagkrus ang aming landas. DIANA. Isang beses lang, pero wagas.

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Wala talaga akong maisip na isulat. Gusto ko na lang gawin itong photoblog, kaso tinatamad akong kumuha ng mga litrato. Pwede din diary of the bully, kaso baka makilala niyo ako. HAHAHA. Iniisip ko din na once a week, may epistaxis word tapos gagawan ko ng kwento. O kaya parang film review, kaso pag ganun baka ma-spoil ko kayo. O kaya parang book review, pero pag di ko pa tapos, i-aanticipate ko tapos saka ko i-cocompare yung sa author vs. sa akin. Aigooooooo~ Hindi ko magawa. Tinatamad ako. Babay!

Muggle Post

NUvember postcards

Safe na nakarating ang NUvember postcards. Salamat kay Hedwig! Miss ko na radio sessions natin. Rock-Ed days. Ah, good times with good friends! Naalala ko bigla si Puck kumakanta ng ‘Good times never seem so good’. Only in the Philippines. Walang ganyan dito. Walang tintinabs dito. MY!

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If you give up, you’ll get what you deserve.
-Paramore